"The Eye Has to Travel, Dear Boy..."


A few years ago, I had a dream about meeting the amazing Diana Vreeland…a living icon for several decades, she was dubbed the “Empress of Fashion,” helping shape both “Harper’s Bazaar” and “Vogue” into the publications they are today.  Her advice columns became famous and inspired women, and fashion, for years.  I decided I would like to write a wonderful little, fictional story about meeting her, just as I had done in my dream. I also thought it would be fun to write about a fictional "me," whilst giving "me" many of my own traits, life experiences, and memories, throughout the story. There is always a lot of myself in my writing, but this is the first time I have used my own name and identified the character as "me" even if the story itself IS fiction.  Since June is Pride month, I also thought that I would like to write into the story a little bit of how young people struggle at that awkward age when they are trying to figure out who they are; the “Jason” character in the story is gay, but at thirteen, is just beginning to understand himself.  It is in Diana, who has seen much more of the world than he or others in his immediate life have, who assures him it’s not only okay, but much more commonplace than he might imagine; in 1983, when the story opens, that would have been a very forward way of thinking, and it would have taken someone like Diana to think that way.  Also intermingled throughout the story are many of Diana’s famous quotes…the true Diana Vreeland fan will recognize them.  I so very much enjoyed writing this story, and I hope you, the reader, enjoy it as much as I did writing it.  I also hope I do Diana justice.  



"The Eye Has to Travel, Dear Boy..."


The taxi came to an abrupt stop, with a slight skid, as its tires slid on the wet pavement.  Jason peeked through the grungy cab window, up at the building in front of him.  It seemed so big. Everything in the city seemed so big.  At thirteen, the world still seems huge, especially to a short, awkward kid with nerd glasses who had never been out of his hometown before.  And now, here he was, in New York, sitting in front of a high rise building, the building his Great Aunt Minnie worked in.  It had been a rainy Summer, and a fairly mild one, which was fine with Jason.  He did not care much for hot, humid weather.  His parents, in the middle of a bitter divorce, had decided that perhaps he needed to get away from home for a short while; it had been a particularly horrible year for him at school, but only Jason really knew that.  For a scrawny, ugly, spectacled kid, junior high school holds fewer horrors than the cruelty exhibited towards those who don’t fit in.  Jason was definitely one of them.  It was difficult to comprehend, as he had always been one of the “popular” kids when he was younger, in elementary school.  He had more friends than he could count, and for the first several years of his young life, he grew up in a protected cocoon of love and adoration from his parents, friends, teachers…everyone.  What had changed the last few years he still did not understand.  No matter…here he was, in New York City for the Summer, handing money to the cab driver like a grown up.  As he opened the door and climbed out of the car into the rain, pulling his suitcase off the seat after him, the peculiar odor of the city…an odor that seems to amplify in the damp weather, hit his nostrils.  That would take some getting used to; he was used to a rural community and fresh, country air.  Still, as scared as he was to be so far away from home, he couldn’t help but be excited, too.  Instead of trying to wrestle with the compact umbrella in the knapsack on his back, the same Jan Sport knapsack he used for carrying his schoolbooks just as few weeks before, he decided to make run for the building’s doors, and the relative dry safety of the porte cochere in the front of the building.  His feet splashed in the puddles on the sidewalk as he half ran, and by the time he reached the overhang, his loafers, socks, and the cuffs of his pants were soaked several inches up the leg.  He took a moment to catch his breath, shake his wet pant legs loose of his calves, and tie his left shoe, which had come untied, the raw leather laces dark and wet.  He stepped into the lobby and sat his suitcase down.  Wiping his glasses, spotted with rain drops, on his shirt, he did the best he could to smooth and part his mousy brown hair with his hands before reaching into his pocket for the piece of paper he had placed there.  He studied the note, which told him which floor to take the elevator to, and which direction to go in order to find his great Aunt Minnie’s office.  At the second floor, the elevator doors opened and an elderly woman with jet black hair stepped in.  Jason had always been taught it was impolite to stare, so he kept his head down a bit, but he couldn’t help but look at this lady.  She was probably the most outrageous looking person Jason had ever seen.  Her black hair was tucked behind her ears and curled forward, like the horns of a ram, Jason thought.  She was dressed in black, with large red earrings that looked like the round poker chips Jason’s parents had back home, in a felt bag in the game room.  There was red everywhere on this little old lady, who was barely taller than Jason.  She had big red bead bracelets and a matching necklace on; her short fingernails were painted red, and the red rouge on her face stretched from her cheeks up to her ears.  It was like she had tried to get the makeup to blend into the big red earrings.  She was either unattractive or absolutely lovely, depending on how you looked at her; she had no beauty, and Jason guessed that even when she was younger, so probably was not an overly beautiful woman, but still…there was a calm, confidence about her that seemed to compensate for any physical imperfections of face or body.  The woman held a black leather portfolio close to her chest, and her eyeglasses at the moment, hung around her neck on a chain, and they tapped against the portfolio as she pressed a button on the panel in front of them.  Her bracelets jangled happily.

“What floor are you getting off on, dear boy?” inquired a raspy but friendly voice.

“Umm…eighteen.  I am here to see my Great Aunt Minnie.  I just got into town.”

The strange lady threw up her hands and smiled, her leather portfolio smacking against the woodgrain elevator wall.  “Minnie!  Oh goodness, how marvelous!  Such a wonderful woman, she is!  I have known her for years.  She was just a young lady when she started working here…that was, let me think…about a year before I left.  I got to know her very well before, though.  That was 1962…my last year here at Harpers.”

“You don’t work here anymore?”

“Oh no, dearest boy…I am just here for the day, visiting.  We are almost to your floor.  I will take you to Minnie’s office.”

“Thank you, but you don’t need to do that if you have somewhere else to be…”

“Nonsense!  It will be good to see “Mins” again, and in a building this large, you could get lost, child…and we can’t have that, can we?”

The elevator dinged and the doors slid open.  “This way, dear boy…”

Jason grabbed his suitcase and followed the strange little lady down a corridor, into another, and then right, into another.  People who passed his elderly guide gave her curious but respected glances and nods.  None spoke to her, not because she didn’t appear friendly, but because she seemed instead…not of this earth, Jason thought.  People seemed to be at a loss for words when they saw her.  Jason wondered who this strange lady was.  For all her short, fragile stature, she moved with a graceful swiftness.  Finally, they reached an open space within which a series of office doors opened into.  The strange lady walked briskly across the tile floor and announced herself in an open office doorway with a theatrical gesture of her arms.

“Minnie!  Dear lady!”

From behind the strange lady, Jason spotted his Aunt.  Great Aunt Minnie ran from behind her desk and gave the strange little lady a big hug.



“Mins…I have a delivery for you…”  The woman took Jason’s hand and pulled him around so he stood next to her.”  I stumbled across this dear boy quite by accident in the lift and decided to bring him up here to you.”


Great Aunt Minnie, dressed completely opposite the strange lady, in a conservative, tailored skirt and jacket the color of a baby deer, came over and hugged Jason.


“Jason…I am so glad to see you!  It’s been what…about two years now?  How you’ve grown!”

“Aunt Minnie…you know very well I am just as short and skinny as I was the last time you saw me…”

The strange lady let out a hearty, genuine laugh, which made Jason and Aunt Minnie laugh too. 

“Minnie, this child is a treasure…that’s what he is, an absolute treasure!”

Aunt Minnie straightened herself up and gestured toward the strange lady.  “Jason, I would like you to meet Diana Vreeland.  And it’s pronounced “Dee-anna.”  She has to be difficult.”

“No dear, you mean different.  Originality is the only thing that is really worthwhile.  Who wants to be mundane?”

Jason held out his hand and shook the little lady’s own.  As he did, her shiny red bracelets jangled vigorously.  “It’s a pleasure to meet you, Ms. Vreeland.  Thank you again for bringing me upstairs to my Aunt.”

“The pleasure is all mine, my dear boy.  You see, I don’t see my grandchildren as much as I would like to these days, as they are much older now.  So, I shall just have to adopt you and steal you away from Minnie here and there while you are in town.  A fabulous time, we shall have!”

After Ms. Vreeland breezed out of Aunt Minnie’s office, in what Jason thought the most elegant way, like a swan on water…Minnie turned to Jason gave him a quick once-over.

“Good Lord!  You must have arrived just as it was pouring!  You’re still half damp, poor thing!  Why don’t you go down the hall, the same one you just came from, and on your left there is a Men’s Room.  Do you have a button down shirt and perhaps a nice pair of pants in your suitcase?  Something you would dress up in for church?  I asked your mother if she could make sure you had one nice outfit, just in case.  It turns out, today is that ‘just in case’ day!”

“Yes…I have a blue shirt and a pair of grey trousers.”  Jason laughed, “It actually is my church outfit.  But I forgot all about a tie…”

“No worries about that.  I can dig up a tie for you to wear.  Half the men in this building keep a spare tie or two in their offices in case they have a mishap at lunch,” Minnie laughed.  Why don’t you go change into some dry clothes, and I will scare you up a tie.  We are attending a very important ceremony this afternoon here at Harpers.”

“Really?  What kind of ceremony?”  Jason’s blue eyes were curious.

“An award ceremony.  Oh, I don’t want to spoil it for you…you’ll see.  Now scoot along and get changed before you catch a cold.  I will be waiting here for you when you get back.”

A few moments later, as Jason was in one of the bathroom stalls changing his clothes, the door opened and he heard the jingling of Ms. Vreeland’s bracelets and her raspy voice, “Dear boy?  Are you in here?”

Jason buttoned his shirt quickly and stepped out of the stall.  Ms. Vreeland was standing there, leaning up against the long counter of wash basins.  In her hand she held a striped tie. 

“Is that tie for me to wear, Ms. Vreeland?”

“That, it is, dear boy…come here, and let me help you with it.”

“It’s pretty.  Navy blue is one of my favorite colors.  I love blue.  That purple is pretty, too.”

“The Navy blue is correct; good eye, dear boy.  The purple is actually a shade called Aubergine.  It’s a little more subtle than what I would call a deep purple.  Colors, you know, are very important.  I worked in the fashion industry for most of my life, and one shade of blue, or red, is never the same as another.  It’s important to have a good grasp on your colors, so others can visualize what you are seeing in your mind.”

“I never thought about that.  Will you teach me about colors?” 

“Of course!  If you want to learn.  First, though, we need to make sure this tie fits you properly.”

Diana flipped up Jason’s shirt collar and draped the tie around his neck.  "Now, dearest boy, I am going to teach you how to tie a proper tie knot, as all gentlemen should know.  Then later, I will teach you about colors.”  Her eyes beamed.  She seemed to be having loads of fun.  She had Jason grab an end of the tie in each hand and, standing together in the mirror, she showed him, by guiding his hands, how to tie the knot.  In the middle of the tutorial, the restroom door swung open and a man in a suit walked in and stopped short, surprised to see the tableau in front of the wash basins.

“Oh, Ms. Vreeland…I apologize…”

“Young man, don’t apologize because you found an old lady in the Gent’s room.  We will be done in a few moments, unless you are not shy…”

The young man half blushed, half smiled, and then chuckled.  “It’s quite alright, Ms. Vreeland…there is another Gent’s in the other corridor.  You carry on…sorry to bother!”  He waved as he exited.

Diana raised her hands and let out a hearty, rusty laugh that echoed around the tiled walls of the restroom.  “Imagine that?  That poor young man…I suppose we gave him a fright!”

Jason, still holding the tie in the same position, mid-knot, as before they were interrupted, giggled. 

“Okay…let’s finish this before another unsuspecting gentleman wanders in.  That’s it…right hand under, then over and down through the knot…that’s it.  Now, let me see.”

Diana fiddled with Jason’s tie knot, got it all straight, and then instructed him to tuck the longer tail into his shirt, since the tie was much too long for someone his size.  She helped him tuck in his dress shirt and smooth out his collar.  One final adjustment to the tie knot and they were done. 

“There, dear boy…you have just learned how to tie a Half-Windsor.  You should always, and only, use a Half-Windsor.  The size of a tie’s knot is terribly important.  Because of your size, this knot is perfect for you.  A Full-Windsor would be too wide, too much.  Oh, there are others too, but this is classic and youthful and you should make it one of your signatures.”

“Signatures, Ms. Vreeland?”

“Please…I just helped dress you…we are on intimate enough ground for you to call me Diana.  And yes, dear boy…signatures.  One should always look for ways to make themselves unique…adopt little things, such as a specific kind of tie knot, that will always be associated with your personality.  Personality and a strong sense of self, just like knowledge of the right colors, are very important. Of course, you are young, and as you grow older you will understand these things more.  But it is never too early to start expressing your individuality and showing the world who you are.  Well, my work here is done.  I am going to go tell your aunt you are almost ready."  Diana stood behind Jason, her tiny frame not much taller than he was. “You know, dear boy, you are a very handsome young man.  You have beautiful deep blue eyes, like ink wells, they are, and the blue in your shirt and in the tie make your eyes sparkle and pop.  Always try to wear blue, dear boy.  It compliments you.  But don’t slouch!  Make the most of your height, dear boy…stand up straight and proud, like a tree.  People will notice you when you enter a room.” 

“But what if I don’t want to be noticed?”

“Nonsense!  People respect others who are confident, dear boy…so whether you feel confident on the inside or not, or want to be noticed or not, always have a presence about yourself.  You don’t have to do anything special, or call attention to yourself…just stand up straight and tall, hold your head up, and trust me, people will notice you and respect that presence you command.  The eye has to travel, dear boy…you may as well make sure eyes travel to YOU.”  She patted his shoulders and then jingled out of the restroom.

Jason stood in the mirror, smoothing his hand over the tie knot he had tied.  The silk of the tie was so slick and soft.  “Always wear blue for my eyes, and always wear this kind of tie knot,” he said to himself, “I guess these two things can be the first things that help make me unique.”  He didn’t know where on earth Diana got the notion he was handsome;  as he damped his hair a bit to smooth the part and train a cowlick in place, he stared at his image through the glasses he had been wearing for several years, the glasses he hated so much.  He didn’t think he was handsome, but if his new friend said it was so, then perhaps…well, the clothes and tie helped a lot.  He folded his almost dry traveling clothes and placed them in his suitcase.  Jason didn’t know it at the time, but that afternoon was to begin an education…an education about life, that he never imagined he would have a chance to learn. 
  

As it turned out, Jason learned less than an hour later, the special ceremony he attended that afternoon was a presentation honoring Diana herself.  As Jason sat with Aunt Minnie and Diana’s name was announced, everyone stood and clapped for the elderly little lady as she made her way up the center aisle to the podium; her heavily rouged cheeks made even more flushed in gratitude from the warmth and adulation in the crowd.  Jason smiled and had to laugh to himself, knowing that his new friend had patiently helped him prepare for the ceremony, prattling away about color and necktie knots, knowing the afternoon belonged to her.  Jason thought how wonderful it was that she had kept her secret, maybe just for fun.  She was, in so many ways, so much like a child experiencing things as if for the first time.  After a succession of perhaps a dozen chosen speakers, including a few former fashion models Diana had taken a fancy to and who had helped launch their careers during her tenure at Vogue…a screen descended from the ceiling and a montage of some of Diana’s most famous advice from her “Why Don’t You?” column she ran at Harpers, intermingled with photos of Diana, flashed across the screen.  Occasionally the audience clapped and cheered as years of Diana’s fantasy-like advice appeared on the screen.  Diana, a tiny figure sitting in a comfortable chair on the stage and still blushing profusely, was obviously overtaken with the outpouring of admiration and love being shown to her.  To Diana, he true passion had always been about the work, about doing what she loved to do; it had obviously never occurred to her that simply by being who she was, she had inspired a great many people.  All of this…the world Diana lived in, the people she knew, was a world completely foreign and unknown to Jason;  he had never heard of the names of most of the designers, models, photographers, and editors his Aunt Minnie was pointing out to him as they shuffled past Diana, enveloping her hands, embracing her frail figure lovingly.  Jason smiled again and, even though he knew about or understood very little of what was going on, and the detail of Diana’s life, he couldn’t help but be proud of his new friend, proud that so many people loved her as much as they did. 

Jason and his Aunt Minnie were some of the last to file past Diana and as they did, Aunt Minnie hugged her warmly.

“Diana, it was such a wonderful tribute to you!  I am so grateful I had a hand in coordinating the event.  I so hoped you would enjoy it!”

“Minnie, dear…I have never felt so much love in one room…not for me!  Of course, you know, I don’t care so much about the adulation…although we as humans will never shy away from it, if given.  I am most happy that I have helped so many others over the years, and God willing, they are better for it.  Thank you for helping make the day special.”

Diana turned to Jason and her face lit up anew. “My dearest boy!  Did you enjoy yourself?  I bet you didn’t know what a crazy old loon you met today!”

Jason, who was terribly shy around large crowds of strangers, forgot his shyness for a moment and smiled as his new friend, “Mrs. Vreeland…Diana, I mean…I had such a wonderful time!  I am happy I was here today.  Today has been so exciting…I do not know if I will sleep tonight.  I have so many questions for you!”

“Well, then we will just have to arrange for you to spend plenty of time with me while you are in New York.  Your Aunt must work, of course, and the last thing you want to do in a city like New York is stay locked in the apartment all day watching God knows what kind of rubbish is on the television these days.  Such a curse, television has become.  I believe people have forgotten how to read about things instead, to explore the world around them.  You and I certainly shall explore!  Minnie, you must make sure this child is accessible to me when you are not able to spend time with him yourself.  I wouldn’t dream of pulling him away from you, but would hate for him to lonely at all while visiting.”

“Of course, Diana…I think it would be a wonderful idea for you to show my nephew around.  You can introduce him to so many things while he is here.”

Diana beamed a smile and her bracelets jangled as she placed her little hands on Jason’s shoulders.  “Then it’s official, dear boy!  You have a new best friend while you are in town!  Prepare to have a marvelous time!”

Jason hugged his new friend and waved goodbye and he and Aunt Minnie made their way back to her office to collect their things.  In the cab on the way back to Aunt Minnie’s apartment, Minnie confided in her nephew.

“You know, I honestly had not anticipated that you would have the chance meeting with Diana you did, and I certainly did not expect her to take to you so.  But then again, perhaps I should not be surprised.  I believe she sees something in you, Jason.  When Diana takes a special liking to someone, it is because she sees something different in the person.  Diana dislikes “boring.” 

“I am not sure what she sees in me, but I think she is the most amazing person I have ever met.  There are not people like her back home.”

“Diana, like most people sometimes, is lonely.  She knows many people and leads a very busy, full life, but I think sometimes she longs for the companionship of a young person, because she herself still feels so young at times.  I think she is happiest when she can share some of her unique wisdom with young people who understand what she says, and means.  I think she sees you as one of those people.  She will be crazy fun for you to spend time with.  I have no doubt you will have a great time.”

Jason smiled and looked out the window of the cab.  He watched the people, the buildings, as they whisked past, and felt as if he had found someone he could talk to…really talk to.  Later, after they had returned to Aunt Minnie’s cozy apartment and had dinner, Jason found the day had been exhaustingly exciting for him and sleep came easier than he had expected.  He felt a change was about to happen for him, but he was not sure how, or in what way. 

The next morning Jason was awoken early by Aunt Minnie.  Light was just starting to peek through the drawn curtains in the little guest room in Aunt Minnie’s snug apartment.  



“Good morning, Jason.  Sorry to wake you so early…I have to get going to work, but I left towels in the bathroom for you and cereal and a bowl on the kitchen table.  Diana called last night after you were asleep; she will be expecting you later this morning at her apartment.  She is going to take you out for the day and show you around the city.”

“She did?  Do you know what she has planned?”

“With Diana, it could be anything.  No doubt you will have a good time today.  Inside, she is very much still a child and great fun.  There is a spare key to the apartment on the table too; hold on to it tightly…this is New York, after all.”

“Okay Aunt Minnie, I will.  Thank you…I’ll see you this evening.”

Aunt Minnie blew him a kiss and backed out of the room, pulling the door closed a bit.  Jason lay in the semi-darkness, collecting his thoughts. 

Jason took a cab to his new friend’s apartment.  It was still so strange to him, the process of public transportation…back home, if he or his parents needed to go somewhere, they had their own vehicles in the driveway and could just go whenever they wanted.  When he told the cab driver the address, ( “550 Park Avenue, please…” ) he had a feeling that meant something; the driver politely smiled and nodded in response.  A short while later, he was deposited in front of a sturdy, grey building.  People were bustling back and forth in front of him.  All of this still new, he thought about what Diana had said the day before; straightening his shoulders and standing tall, he strode with confidence he didn’t really possess toward the entrance of the apartment building.  A few moments later he was on the ninth floor in front of Diana’s apartment.  He knocked a few times.  There was a rustling noise from behind the door and the fiddling of door locks.  The door swung open and there was Diana, still brave with red rouge, holding out her arms to greet him. 

“Welcome, my boy!  Did you have any trouble getting here?  Oh, well you can tell me everything while I get you something cool to drink.  How smart you look!  Come in, my boy…”

Jason had agonized that morning over what to wear; knowing now who Diana was, he had become deeply aware of how important it may be for him to look what he felt would be appropriate, if he was going to be spending the day with a fashion icon such as herself.  Not having a huge variety of clothing to choose from, just what he had brought with him, he had chosen a khaki pair of shorts, the loafers he normally wore to church, and another blue button down shirt; his mother had insisted on getting him two, and for some inexplicable reason he had packed both for his trip. 

“I…I hope I look okay, Diana.  I wasn’t sure what we would be doing but did a lot of thinking about what you said yesterday and I decided to wear this blue shirt…don’t worry, it’s not the same one…”

Diana laughed at this. “Oh, dear boy, no need to explain yourself away around me!  I have two boys myself, remember?  I know how boys at your age are.  Besides…the one you wore yesterday was broadcloth and this one is pinpoint oxford…and very well pressed, if I may add…did you iron it yourself?”

“Yes, I did.  My mother taught me to iron…she said every boy should know how to take basic care of himself, whatever that means…”

“Your mother is a wise woman, and she is right.  But dear boy, your feet will be positively ruined walking around all day in those penny loafers…New Yorkers walk…unless it’s pouring down rain like yesterday, or they are infirm…”

“Oh, I have a pair of socks,” Jason pulled them from his pocket, “I just wasn’t sure if they looked right…”

Diana laughed again.  “Dear boy, how you DO make me laugh!  That’s a good thing, in case you misunderstood.  Always keep people second guessing and always make people laugh.  Come into the Living Room and sit down.  You can slip on that pair of socks.  I will get you a glass of water and find my own shoes and we will be off!”

Diana ushered Jason into a large room that seemed small; Jason had never seen anything like it before in his life.  Everything was red; the carpet was red, the heavily patterned wallpaper was red, the curtains, the furniture cushions, even the fresh flowers…all red.  It was almost too much for one’s eyes to take in at once.  It was over the top, and a room that could have been viewed as ugly or beautiful.  Jason decided it was beautiful…VERY red, and VERY busy, but beautiful, because it broke every rule of convention, just like his new friend.  He liked that.  Diana returned with a glass of water; Jason was still standing in the same place she had left him and his eyes must have been wide because Diana let out a laugh as she sat his water glass down.  



“I know what you’re thinking about the room…it’s like a garden in hell, isn’t it? That’s what I call it.  I love red.  Come sit down, dear boy.  Let’s get our feet ready.”

In her other hand Diana had a pair of simple white canvas Keds; snow white, like they had just come out of the box.  “These little shoes are horrible but they are also horribly comfortable.  We will be doing a lot of walking today.  I am going to take you over to Central Park.”  She tied the laces of her little white shoes while Jason slipped his socks and loafers back on.  The socks did help.  They were short socks, and he scrunched them down toward his ankles so they weren’t so obvious. 

Five minutes later they were back out on the noisy sidewalk…Diana knew exactly where she was going and although old and seemingly frail, she walked quickly and with purpose.  Jason kept up with her, trying to take in the sights, watch for traffic, and listen to Diana’s constant, happy prattle at the same time…she gesticulated a lot, pointing out landmarks, talking about the years she spent in New York, how much things had changed…finally, almost without noticing the transition, they had left the noisy streets behind and were surrounded by trees and lush greenery; the tall buildings still rose above, but the city suddenly slowed down a bit.  Diana did the same, but kept chatting.  They followed a wide path, and she pointed out her favorite bridge, an oak tree she and her husband used to sit under and doze or read…finally they came to a giant rock, a huge thing, sticking out of the ground.  With surprising agility, Diana scaled the gentle slope of the rock with Jason behind her, and when they got to the top she plopped down and took a breath.

“This is a favorite spot of mine, right here.  Isn’t the view magnificent?” 

Being around so many trees made Jason feel more at home, and also a little homesick, but he was having such a wonderful time, he brushed that off.

“Later, we will stop by the library.  It’s quite extraordinary…books about everything.  This city has everything, you know…it’s the most exciting place in the world to me, except for Paris, of course…”

At the sound of “Paris,” Jason’s ears perked up.  The only thing he knew about New York or Paris was what he had read about, or seen on television.  Now that he was experiencing New York in real life, he was anxious to hear about Paris.

“Ms. Vreeland…sorry, Diana…tell me about Paris?”

Diana’s eyes lit up and she began talking.  She told Jason about living there as a girl, how she was devastated to leave when her family moved to New York, how she could only speak French when she arrived and she did horribly in school because no one understood what she was saying, and how happy she was to see Paris again years later. 

“I dislike school myself.  I hate it, in fact.  I dread going every day.  That is why this summer vacation is like heaven to me.”

“And why do you hate school, dear boy?”

“I…I don’t fit in.  The other kids…they are not very nice to me, because I’m different.  I find it hard to concentrate on my school work.  It scares me because I am afraid I won’t become smarter if I don’t pay attention.”

“There is all sorts of learning, dear boy; what you are taught in school is important, for sure, but not everything.  And one is either born smart or not.  Believe me, I have met a lot of people, and I have met people with two or three college degrees who are dumber than this rock we are sitting on, because they were just born dumb.  And they have no common sense.  You needn’t worry; you are smart as a whip, trust me on that, and you have a healthy dose of common sense.  Just concentrate on learning about things.  Teach yourself.  And don’t worry about just learning what they have to teach you in school…learn about the world…learn about art, and music, and history, and beauty…most people don’t even bother with such things.  I feel sorry for them; they miss so much about life because of it.  Those two young men down there quite fetching, are they not?”

The sudden change of subject jolted Jason’s mind back on even keel; he had been listening to what Diana was saying so intently, he didn’t realize he must have been studying two young men below, sitting under the shade of a tree.  Jason guessed they were probably old enough to drive, but not quite old enough to vote…only four or five years older than he was.  Diana spoke again.

“Do you have a young man at your school you fancy?”

“Fancy? I’m not sure I know what you mean…”

“Yes, you do.”  Diana laughed again.  “You can’t fool me, my boy.  So, is there someone?  You’re still young, but old enough.”

“No, not really.  I mean, I don’t think so.  I never gave it much thought.  It’s not exactly something that you see where I’m from.”

“I can understand that. Well, let me tell you, dear boy…and remember, I’ve seen a LOT of the world in my time…you DO see it elsewhere…it’s quite common, you know…don’t let anyone tell you any different…and it’s perfectly normal and natural.”

“It is?  Really?”

“Of course, it is.  What…you think every human being is cut out of the same mold?  How boring would the world be if we were!  No…there are ALL sorts of people out here in the world…wonderful, amazing, interesting people.  Those two young men, for instance…how lovely, they are!  And how they must care for one another.  You can tell by their body language and their smiles.  Yes…completely natural, my boy.  Now, don’t go back home and forget about what I told you and try and be anyone else except YOU…I’ll be quite vexed if you become a puppet…promise me you won’t become a puppet…that you will be your own man, and live YOUR life, YOUR way…it won’t be easy at times, mind you, but you can do it.  I believe in you.”

“You do?  I mean, okay…I promise…”

“Good!  Then you, my boy, have earned lunch at the most wonderful delicatessen around the corner…and then the library.  How does that sound?”

“Yes, please!  Can I check out a book?  I’m sure my aunt can return it for me…”

“You can check out as many books as you want.  I have a cart there.”

“A cart?”

“You’ll see…now, help this old lady down off this rock, if you don’t mind, dear boy.”

The delicatessen was fun…crowded but cozy, lots of people talking at once in languages Jason couldn’t understand but tried to guess what they were by studying the words and accents…occasionally he would even catch a word he thought sounded vaguely familiar to an English equivalent.  Lunch turned out to be turkey and ham clubs on white toast with bacon, both Havarti and Swiss cheeses and extra mayonnaise.  “Trust me, my boy, once you have a club sandwich like this you will never want it differently.”  After lunch, Jason, who had grown more comfortable walking around the city, paced briskly at Diana’s side, to the library.  Jason had always liked libraries; they had the most wonderful smell…the smell of knowledge and time.  Diana helped him pick out some books on architecture, a large picture book that chronicled the history of Paris, and as they got up to the counter, she slapped one more book down on the pile.  

“It’s Keats.  Poetry and Prose.  Trust me, you will like it.  You may have to read parts of it a few times before you understand everything he is saying, but you will enjoy it.  We are going to expand your mind!”  After the young man behind the counter had checked the books, Diana said to him, “My cart please, Evan.” 

“Yes, Ms. Vreeland.”

Evan produced a little folding wire basket with two wheels and a handle.  He snapped it open and gently loaded the books down into it.  Jason took the handle and pulled the funny little cart behind them out of the library and bounce, bounce, down the wide steps to the sidewalk. 

“Does everyone in New York have a cart like this at the library?”

“I’m not sure…but I just showed up one day with it and asked them to keep it there for me and I suppose they decided to humor an old lady.  Besides, they know me here.”

“Diana…thank you so much.  I’ve had the most stupendous day.”

“Stupendous?  Good for you, dear boy!  Don’t be afraid to use those adjectives.  Think of them like all of those colors you are going to teach yourself about…sometimes, you want a very special, colorful word to express your feelings.  Normal is totally boring.  Don’t ever be normal.  And the day isn’t over, yet.  I have one little surprise left before we get you back to your aunt.”

The surprise was delivered to Diana’s apartment after they had returned.  She excused herself for a moment whilst Jason made himself comfortable on the floor of her Living Room…her “garden in hell” swirled around him as he studied the books in front of him…he loved all of the books, but the book on Paris was a particular interest. 

“So, you really love Paris, do you?”  Diana was watering the flowers in the room with a dainty little watering can…red, of course. 

“Oh, I do!  Everything about the city looks…stunning…”

“Oh, it is, dear boy!  Oh, it has it’s not so attractive things about it, just like any other city, but one rarely notices them, once they are there.  There are too many beautiful things to focus on instead.”

There was a knock at the door.  Diana excused herself.  Jason inquired who might be at the door.  Diana raised her arm in the air, bracelets jingling, and exclaimed as she rounded the corner toward the door, “Paris!  Paris is here!”  



Jason was truly curious.  His aunt was right; you just never knew what was going to happen next with Diana.  A few moments later, she reappeared with a tray containing two small plates with two shallow bowls on them, and two wine glasses.

“Come, dear boy…come sit.”  She gestured to a little table and two chairs in the corner of the room.  Jason sat down as Diana distributed the contents of the tray. 

“I’ve never seen anything like this before.  What is it?”

“This, my boy, is Crème Brûlée.  I thought I would bring a little taste of Paris to you.  I get them from a little bistro around the corner.  We’ll go there for lunch one day this week, if your aunt doesn’t mind.”

Diana spooned from a tiny bowl a red sauce.  “Raspberry,” she said, “There is nothing in the world like Crème Brûlée and raspberry sauce.  And that is white wine in the glass, in case you were wondering…if you are going to learn anything about France, dear boy, you must learn the French drink wine with every meal, even the children…they are quite sophisticated that way.  Just the same, just sip.  Your aunt would be mortified if I returned you to her tipsy and never let me see you again, and I do enjoy your company.”

Jason took a sip of the wine, which was sparkling and sweet.  It tasted like grapes, but with a little kick.  Jason watched Diana carefully as she picked up a spoon and pierced the dark, caramelized crust through the drizzle of raspberry sauce.  It looked like pudding; Jason followed suit and imitated Diana’s actions as closely as he could.  He took a bite.  The warm custard was the best thing he had tasted.

“Diana…this is amazing!”  He took another sip of wine.

Diana’s eyes lit up. “I knew you would like this!  Well, who wouldn’t?  Someone with no taste, that’s who…you know, there is a difference between having a little bad taste and having no taste at all; everyone should have just a little bit of bad taste…but no taste…that’s just inexcusable.”

After they were finished, Jason helped his friend clear the table.  He suspected it was soon going to be time for him to go, but he didn’t want to; he was learning so many wonderful things but it didn’t seem like he was learning, which made it even more wonderful.  Diana called downstairs and asked for a cab so Jason didn’t have to wait.  She disappeared down the hallway and came back with a brown satchel. 

“You need something to carry those books home in, dear boy.”  Jason loaded the books into the bag.

“If you are interested, I will send you another book.  They are writing a book about my life.  For some reason they think it will be of interest to people, what I have to say.”

“I would LOVE to read the book when it comes out!  Would you please send me a copy?”

“Absolutely, I will.  You will learn just how crazy of an old lady I really am!”

 

Diana walked Jason down to the waiting cab.  “I will call your aunt tomorrow and see if we can arrange another day together.  Diana gave Jason a big hug and kissed his cheek.  ‘Thank you so much, dearest boy, for spending the day with me.”

“No, thank YOU.  You’re the most amazing friend I have ever had.”  Diana beamed at this.

She stood on the sidewalk and waved at him as the cab pulled away.  When he arrived back at his aunt’s apartment, he was too tired to do anything but crash on the sofa.  He must have fallen asleep because the next thing he knew, his aunt was coming through the door. 

“So…how was your day?  It appears Diana wore you out!”

“She is the most wonderful person, Aunt Minnie!  We don’t have anyone like her back home.”

“She’s an original, Diana.  It’s doubtful you will meet many like her,” Aunt Minnie glanced at the table with confusion.  “Where did that bag come from?”

“Diana gave it to me to carry the library books home with me.  We went to the library and…”

Aunt Minnie let out a laugh.  “She gave you a Vuitton satchel to carry library books home in?  Of course she did…that’s Diana!”

 

Jason spent a few more days with his friend while he was visiting his aunt.  She took him to the Metropolitan Museum of Art ( “They know me here, too…” ) and they went back to Central Park once.  Before Jason was to leave for home, Diana gave him a few last pieces of advice.

“Dear boy, I want you to promise me you will write to me.  Writing is becoming a dying art form.  Write to me about school, things you learned, things you are teaching yourself…whatever comes to mind.”

“I promise…”

“And don’t let anyone keep you from being yourself…not your parents, the other kids at your school…no one.  Learn about yourself, and then BE that person…”

“I won’t…I mean, I will do these things.  I won’t let anyone keep me from being myself.”

“Good.  And the last thing…make sure you find a way to get to Paris, one day.  You should go…you will understand and appreciate its beauty as most people never could.”

“I want that more than anything.  I will find a way to get there, I promise…”

 

Jason kept in touch with Diana over the next several years.  He would write to her, and she to him; on occasion they would also speak on the telephone.  She sent him a copy of her book after it was published, as she had promised.  On the inside of the jacket, in her shaky handwriting, she wrote, “Dearest boy…the best of friends, always – Diana”

One night, shortly after his nineteenth birthday, Jason received a call from his Aunt Minnie.  He knew something was wrong before she even spoke.

“Jason…Diana passed away earlier.  It was a heart attack.  She wasn’t really ill, but perhaps she knew her time was near; she visited me a few months ago and gave me a letter for you.  She made me promise not to give it to you until after she was gone.  I thought it was strange but she assured me she was fine…she was just preparing, she said.  But that was how Diana was.  Anyway, I am going to mail this to you, and wanted you to be expecting it.  I am so sorry, Jason…she was my friend for years and I am devastated, but the two of you had a bond that was special, and I can imagine how upset you must be.  I’m sending you my love, tonight, Jason.  Now, could I speak to your mother?”

“Thank you, Aunt Minnie.  I will keep a lookout for the package.”

A week later, a large envelope arrived.  Jason opened the parcel and a fat letter envelope, addressed to him in Diana’s hand fell out onto the bed.  He opened it.  There was a letter, and another envelope.  Inside of it was a stack of $100 bills.  Jason counted it; $5000.00.  Confused, he picked up the letter…

 

Dearest Boy,

I made you promise me that one day you would get to Paris.  Let’s just say this is my way of making sure you keep that promise.  I’m not a rich woman, which is fine with me…I never had much use for money anyway…brings out the worst in people, it does…but you also can’t get along without it sometimes, I’m afraid, so I have been saving a little aside over the last several years since we first met in New York during your trip.  It’s enough to get you there, and keep you there for as long as you can stretch a dollar.  Don’t do anything else with this money…it’s for Paris…although I would be in complete support of you purchasing some new clothes for the trip.  Remember, the French are simply mad about clothes, and Parisians in particular, are smartly dressed.  If you want to feel like a real Parisian while you are there, do what you can to dress the part.  Don’t forget to include a lot of blue, to compliment your eyes.  I still remember your eyes…such lovely little pools of blue, they are.  Next to my two sons, watching you grow up to become an intelligent, well rounded young man has been a particular joy.  Now, go book a plane ticket and have yourself an adventure…life is about adventures, dear boy…make yours a good one.

Love,

Diana

 


“You know…you really should try some raspberry sauce on that…it makes all the difference in the world.”

“I’m sorry…did you say raspberry sauce?”  The man with the dark hair and even darker eyes looked across his table.  Another young man, just about his age, perhaps a few years younger, was looking at him over the rims of his glasses, his sandy brown hair blowing in the gentle evening air.  The little bistro’s terrace was peacefully lit with gas lanterns around the perimeter of the brick wall, and the hurricane lamp on the table flickered little flecks of light on the young man’s glasses and face.

“Apologies…I didn’t mean to interrupt your dessert.  I just saw you had ordered the same thing as I did and well, the raspberry sauce is divine.  Trust me, you’ll see.”

A waiter appeared and sat Jason’s Crème Brûlée down on the table.  “Enjoy, Monsieur.”

“Cela a l'air délicieux. Je vous remercie” The waiter bowed appreciatively and walked away.

Nervous, but mustering confidence, Jason gestured to the dark haired man at the other table.  “My name is Jason.  Would you care to join me?  You can try some of this sauce…”

“Sure…why not?  It’s not every day I’m picked up in a bistro in Paris,” the man laughed as he sat down next to Jason.

“I’m not picking you up, handsome,” Jason laughed, “I’m way too shy for that…I just don’t want to see you spoil a perfectly good French custard.  I owe that to a very dear friend of mine.  Would you mind if I asked your name, or shall we just settle for “Handsome?”

The man laughed at this.  “I’m Adam…”

“Of course, you are…” Jason let out a nervous laugh.

“So, who is this friend of yours, that you felt compelled to rescue me and my dessert from desecration?”

“Oh, she was an amazingly special lady…Diana Vreeland.”

“You knew her?  Really?  No kidding?!”

“I did.  We were great friends.  I first met her when I was thirteen.  I went to New York to visit my aunt that summer and met her.  In fact, the first time I had Crème Brûlée was sitting right in her Living Room.”

“You’re making this up!”

“I swear, I’m not.  We wrote letters back and forth for several years.”

“I understand she just recently passed away…”

“She did.  That’s one of the reasons I am here.  She made me promise I would see Paris.  Here…try this sauce…”

They ate in silence; when you’re truly comfortable in one’s company, you don’t need to talk all of the time.  When they were finished, Adam spoke again.

“Well, you were right…or Diana was right…that raspberry sauce…”

“I told you…” Jason smiled as he stood.  “Do you have any plans right now? Would you like to take a walk?  I hear the moonlight bounces off the Seine like no other river in the world…Jesus, I can’t believe I’m being so bloody brave…”

“Sure, let’s go confirm your moonlight theory.  Would it be too forward if I asked if I could hold your hand?  I’m normally not this brave, either but…well, what the hell…it’s Paris…”